I’m Pregnant!!! With a Dream
Have you got a dream carried so long, you’ve nearly given up on it ever coming true?
Been through so many difficult things you find it too risky to believe in happy endings anymore?
Ever taken a break to rest because you’re soul-weary, only to discover you’re pregnant with twins?
Okay, so I’m 51 and uterus-less, but I’m pregnant nonetheless. And I’m wondering if maybe you are too…
Truth is, I’ve waited so long in hope, I was afraid to mention the story here. Have you ever felt that way? Struck mute in the midst of birthing a dream, for fear of chasing it away? As if anything God has truly planned for us could ever be taken away.
I took a hiatus from writing to rest, then life turned a bit insane. Hubby had knee surgery, daughter came home sick from college, new transcription work arrived, I went to a writer’s conference, we took a 10-day trip with my mom to check the Grand Canyon off her bucket list, Hubby traveled much for business, I ended up sick for four months, and my mom nearly died. Yet in the midst of it all I sensed something good was coming. Felt God moving behind the scenes.
Turns out, like the over-round cows in our new ancient driveway, I was preparing to birth dual dreams – to homestead and write books.
After many years and forfeited attempts, a way has opened where there had been no way. The opportunity has now come to move forward. We’re taking a leap of faith and accepting it. Eager to see what God plus our sweat will do.
So we’ve pulled two elderly campers to the end of the road on our family farm, to a place abandoned over 60 years ago. I’ve dreamed of living there since I was a little girl collecting chicken eggs at the neighbor’s with my dad. Now we pursue that long-held dream – to homestead, raise critters, grow food, gather folks, and write books.
It’s a process. We still rent a house in town while we work through countless big and small details. We camp on the farm, building roads, removing dead trees, uprooting thistle, and pondering important issues like outhouses, chicken coops, fences, water, and how not to freeze or be marooned when winter comes. And I go there to write as much as I can. That’s where the twin blessing comes in.
After working alone on my next book for seven years, the midwife has finally arrived. At the writer’s conference I met a gentle, encouraging soul with a passion for co-birthing books that shine hope in the midst of dark times. Our work together has now begun.
Sometimes I think Hubby and I, we are Abraham and Sarah – a couple well on in years, being God-taught that it’s never too late for a happy ending. That it’s worth daring to believe in your dreams.
So here’s to being brave and moving forward, by the light we are given each day. One faithful step at a time. Trusting that God is good. And if He wants it for us, He will be sure to make a way.
How about you, you dreamers of dreams…
What if it’s still possible?
What if it’s never too late?
What if God isn’t finished with us yet?
…He who began a good work in you is faithful to complete it… ~ Philippians 1:6
QUESTION: What is God developing behind the scenes in your life, making you want to declare: I’m pregnant! With a dream!